Sunday, January 25, 2015

Because We Can

Reflections on The Unstable Elements 


Theatre – live performance before a live audience – has always played a vital role in society writ large. Over the millennia, the purpose of theatre has at once been to entertain, educate and to tell the Truth (capital T). Live performance raises awareness, provides a call to action and, in short, creates a forum for the People to come together, to see life mirrored on the stage, and shine a bright light on what is important in society and what needs immediate attention.

Last night, along with about 30 others, I attended a screening of Dangerous Acts, a 2011 documentary about the Unstable Elements of Belarus of the Belarus Free Theatre. The film chronicled their rise from clandestine performances before perhaps 20 patrons at a time, to international recognition in New York City and Great Britain (the ensemble’s work has been recognized with world-wide acclaim including a 2011 Obie Award, among other accolades). The story of the fate and lives of these eight ensemble members is brazenly chronicled against the backdrop of the pre– and post– December 19, 2010 election activities in Belarus.

The Belarus Free Theatre fulfills this vital role of theatre in society: they courageously (and dangerously) choose to tell the truth. The truth about the oppression of the people. The truth about a brutal dictatorship that operates with impunity, much like the Soviet regime who reigned before it. They tell the Truth, with pieces like, "The Disappeared," "Zone of Silence," and "Minsk: 2011." They bravely and brazenly provide this forum for discussion, mirror life on the stage, and bring into bright light what’s important and what needs attention –in their country and in the world. Simply put, they explore the myriad of taboos holding hostage the population of a post-Soviet Belarus.

I won’t go into the details of the injustice and indignity borne on the backs of the people of Belarus, appropriately described as “Europe’s Last Dictatorship.” Although worth far more than a thousand words, suffice it here to recount what was shared by one of the actors in relaying the results of said “election.” So says she: “There is a joke in Minsk … (incumbent President) Lukashenko’s men come to him after the election, and say, ‘We have good news and bad news. The good news is that you are still President. The bad news is … nobody voted for you.’” [As a side note, editorials about the antiquated process followed by the outdated use of our Electoral College and “hanging chads” aside, the votes we cast in a U.S. Presidential election (and all elections) do count. Registered voters who don’t vote and taxpaying citizens who don’t register are yet another peeve of mine. A big one. An infuriating one. But for another blog, perhaps.]

I was a member of Amnesty International for two years in college, and for about a year after graduation. I remember the narratives on the plight of political prisoners and I wrote letters to petition for their freedom. Unstable Elements brought back to me some of the same feelings of outrage and injustice I felt twenty-something years ago as I penned letter after letter and with tears of rage, signed my name. It’s impossible to watch the unfolding of such atrocities happening in our world in our lifetime and not be so moved. It was, to put it mildly, an amazing performance.

Immediately following the screening, there was a talk-back with the audience, led by local theatre community leaders Michael Krickmire of the SUNY Brockport Theatre Department; and John Borek from the Multi-use Community Cultural Center (MuCCC) on Atlantic Avenue. The discussion was moderated by Caroline Yeager, Assistant Curator, Motion Pictures, at the George Eastman House. A main topic for discussion was why, in America, do we not have this kind of theatre? Why doesn’t anyone here do political theatre?

Well, we do. Let’s not fool ourselves by burying our heads in the sand about the issues showcased and stories told by theatre groups that do choose to tell these stories. They are there, on college campuses and socially conscious community theatres nationwide. I’ve seen them. I’ve participated in them. The issues are different, it’s true. We fight for marriage equality, gender equality, gay/bisexual/transgender rights, an end to illegal police brutality and political corruption; an end to child abuse and domestic violence; we fight for the right to die with dignity. But I must admit: we do not have “this kind” of political theatre here. Not like this that the Dryden audience experienced last night. Not like the Belarus Free Theatre.

So, let’s assume the premise stands solid. Why not here? Well, for one thing, we have other outlets to raise awareness and call the people to action in a technological society. We have film, the internet and other forms of more “efficient” mass communication. I think that’s a good thing – a very good thing – and I’ll refrain from my standard rant here, about how people just don’t talk to each other anymore.

Another answer to “why not here?” is quite simple: because we have a Constitution. We have a Bill of Rights that guarantees certain, what we would consider, basic freedoms. We are free to speak, to think what we want and say what we think. Our journalists enjoy the freedom to report facts, no matter how unsavory and inconvenient to the power structure (and, it’s well worth noting here, the right to protect the sources who bring them these Truths). We are free to peaceably assemble, to protest injustice, and fight for equality in all realms of our lives. Do we take these rights for granted, because we have enjoyed them for so long and have become complacent to the freedoms these rights enable? Let’s hope not. Hope also, that the next time you bitch and moan about the government or politicians and what “they” are doing to this country, you remember to be damned glad you can.

Because you can.

Because people in countries like Belarus can’t. In Minsk, there were mass arrests following post-election protests; thousands of citizens beaten, arrested, tortured and detained for nothing more than gathering together to demand justice. No weapons, no looting, no fires, no vandalism, no violence at all. Just peaceful protest followed by imprisonment. Endless imprisonment. No defense. No attorney. No legal advice. Just false imprisonment.

And something interesting was also asked by the moderator of our post-screening talk-back. “Interesting,” I say, because, although perhaps innocent, it was at once sad, rather ignorant and amusingly naïve. How is it, wondered the moderator, that this can happen? How can so few in power oppress the masses at large, so many in number? Well, without launching into diatribe about how history is replete with examples of the suffering of the few at the hands of the many, there is a simple answer to this question.

Because they can.

It is because of realities such as this that the Belarus Free Theatre must operate in secret. There is no advertising, no publicity; just word-of-mouth and the internet. Tickets are sold only by phone, to avoid accusations of illegal commerce. They rehearse and perform in hiding. They are in such constant danger that they cannot divulge where their theatre is located. Patrons meet on a street corner, and the Stage Manager emerges to escort them to the theatre space –after asking, “Did you bring your passports? (We don’t expect trouble, but just in case).”

I cannot imagine my theatre having to operate in secret. I cannot imagine our actors and other artists risking their lives to tell our stories and to speak our truths. We have no such restrictions. We have no such … dangers (doesn’t even begin to describe it).

Because we don’t –because we are free to think what we want, write what we want, say what we think, and perform as we please– we must. In grass-roots, member-supported community theatre, we must continue to tell our stories. We must continue to tell our Truths.

Because we can.

(Feeding the Moonfish, TANYS Festival Winner, Best Short Production, 2014. Jared Lee Morgan, Colleen DiVincenzo. Photo by Marty Nott)






Saturday, January 3, 2015

“Take Your Meds!” Not a Joking Matter

Over the past few weeks and months I've been subjected to a tremendous number of pressures in my personal and professional life, causing me extraordinary stress. Work has been crazy to say the very least. My theater company participated in (and won) a statewide competition. My personal life has been dealt some serious blows by friends I thought loved me. And then the stress of traveling for the holidays... yeah. 

Now, everyone experiences stress of this nature, and I know that. I know more than most, I believe, as sometimes it is difficult for me to deal with situations and navigate life in ways ordinary people can easily do, with little effort. In the deepest, darkest valleys of my life experience, for example, just getting out of bed could be a struggle. Taking a shower took almost all the energy I could muster, to the point that I would need to rest – physically rest – prior to getting dressed or putting on my makeup.

And all this because I have a mental disorder. I am mentally ill.

Treating My Illness

My mental disorder is Major Depressive Disorder with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (MDD with GAD). It’s not terminal, or even life threatening in any way. But it is incurable. It’s treatable, but I will never be completely cured.

The good news is that modern pharmaceuticals have been able to treat my disorder for decades now. With the birth of Prozac in the late 1980’s, those suffering various forms and intensities of Anxiety and Depression have been saved by a class of drugs known as Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SRRIs). In that class of drugs, you will not only find Prozac (fluoxetene), but also Paxil (paroxetene), Lexapro (escitalopram oxalate) and Zoloft (sertraline), among others.

[Sidenote: Another class of Depression treatments that includes medications such as Effexor (venlafaxine) and Wellbutrin (bupriprion) also aid in the reuptake inhibition of nor-epinephrine and dopamine, other neurotransmitters that aid in the regulation of mood and emotional states.]

Now, I’m not a physician. I have no medical training beyond a CPR course at the local Red Cross. But since my Depression diagnosis in late 2001, and subsequent Anxiety diagnosis three years ago, I have done more than a little reading and research in order to better understand my illness. I like to think I know a little more than the average person not so inflicted.

Here is some of what I learned.

Serotonin is a neurotransmitter that aids in regulating a human being’s mood. What happens in Depression – and really, no one knows how, why, or when – is that either the brain cannot manufacture enough of the chemical, or although manufactured in sufficient quantities, for some reason as yet unknown, the bloodstream absorbs whatever quantity of this neurotransmitter is available, and sweeps it away before it can do its job. Thus, the individual cannot easily control his or her emotional states. The mechanism simply isn’t there. SSRI medications prevent the bloodstream from robbing the brain of the necessary chemical, enabling the individual to enjoy more normal levels of these essential neurotransmitters.

Lest I amble down a neuro-chemical bunny trail, my point is simple. Depression and Anxiety, although considered mental disorders, do have a physical manifestation. Something in the brain and body has gone wrong, and the mechanisms necessary for a full and balanced life cannot function unaided.

A Much Maligned Affliction

Although the physiological results are well-known and documented, they are still much misunderstood by the general population.

Again, I am not a doctor, but I recognize that the prevailing understanding of physical illnesses – sickness, disease – is that they are generally caused by some pathogen, a virus or bacterial infection. There is generally no blame, judgment or chastisement of the afflicted attached to such afflictions. They’re not (generally speaking) behavioral in nature.

However, society seems to have a somewhat skewed perception of mental illness – and particularly, Depression: You must have done something or made some mistake in your lifestyle or behavior. You’ve caused this, brought it on yourself, neglected yourself in some way. That’s why you’re depressed. It’s all in your head. Stop thinking sad thoughts. Be positive! Just snap out of it.

But that’s the trap: we cannot “just snap out of it.” The physiological mechanism simply isn’t there.

To draw an analogy, consider Diabetes, a chronic, debilitating and incurable illness. Sometimes behavioral (poor diet, a sedentary lifestyle, etc.), often genetic in nature. With certain types and severities of Diabetes, the individual may be prescribed insulin, to combat the fact that the body does not function as it should. This chemical keeps the person alive and functioning.

Such an individual cannot function without insulin. You’d never dream of saying to this person, “It’s all in your pancreas. Just snap out of it.” A diabetic can no more “snap” their pancreas into producing the right amount of insulin to counteract the effects of excess glucose in the bloodstream, than someone with Depression can force their brain to produce the right amount of neurotransmitters, or “snap” their bloodstream into not washing it away before it can work.

Think Before You Speak

I take a daily dose of a medication that essentially keeps me functioning as, what I hope to be, a valued and contributing member of society. Juvenile jokes and snarky remarks about “taking your meds” aren’t funny to me. They are hurtful. They are harmful. They perpetuate the misconception that a person suffering mental illness and taking “meds” in order to function normally is somehow at fault. The intent of such comments may not be to hurt or harm, but that’s exactly what they do.

So please. Next time you’re tempted, no matter the situation, please think twice about making a joke about mental illness or the medications that treat it. It is difficult enough for the mentally ill to navigate the world without pharmaceutical assistance. We don't need the added anxiety such ignorant, insensitive comments can bring.

We don’t want to be sick. We want to be well.

Depression hurts.

Words can be painful, too.

(Dismount soapbox.)